Where'd You Go?

"Where'd you go? I miss you so. 

Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone. Please come back home."

Sometimes life hands you lemons, and you just look life in the eye and say, "screw this. I wanted apples." Then you hide, because life will find you and curb stomp you into a lemony submission. I was always told that everything happens in God's will and God's time. So that someday regardless of all the absolute garbage I have to wade through I will look back and know it had a purpose.

It's not everything I have gone through that gets to me, or the fact that I made mistakes I can't take back. It's that terrible moment when you realize your life could be an episode of MTV's True Life. Except it's one of the sad episodes like the extreme OCD one; and that's almost as sad as one of those horrible humane society commercials.

It seems every once in a while I think I'm lying. Every once in a while I stop believing everything I say.

It's not that I found out I'm actually a different person, because that would be cheesy wouldn't it? Maybe a tad schizophrenic?

It's not that I realized I made a series of horrible decision I can't take back, because that would be useless.

It's not that I entered a depression that I can't shake off, because I don't actually get depressed I just get tired of going and doing things...it's different. Promise.

I just needed a recovery, and the other day it just felt weird. I just woke up and felt completely different. I cleaned, and I shaved, and I apologized to those that I hadn't seen for the blur of the past 3 weeks. It was like some piece of me had just come back. 

I suddenly understood where I was, and who I am.

Deep huh?

I bet this sounds like some crazy Charlie Sheen rant, and in that case I guess I am bi-winning. Woot!

It's a strange thing, but I'm glad it happened. So to those that actually were upset that I stopped, thank you. I guess I pulled a bit of Dave Chappelle there for a few weeks. However, I promise I set have set some new standards. These posts will be everyday at 6:00PM. You also may notice some changes to the page as things persist, but I'll mention them as they happen.

Have you ever had a moment where you felt like you weren't yourself?